When I need to cry, or just put all my stress out, i have only one way of doing it. If I'm angry and shouldn't be, there's only one thing that'll help. People excercise, fight, yell it out, cry it out, anything. But for me it's different. Not that I can't put it out verbally. I do at times. But this helps more. Why? Maybe because it's relaxing. Maybe because it's the only thing that can't make me angry or sad. Excercise means realising I'm fat. Result: i'm annoyed. Yell? To what? The wall? And cry? Why cry if there are other ways of doing it? I find it hard to cry too, anyways. I have a really sad theory with tears, which has something to do with salt. But never mind that. It's unimportant.

So what do I resort to doing during annoying times? Shut myself in my bedroom, open the case and pull out my guitar. How can I get angry with my guitar? I strum chords and I feel better. I feel myself relax. That's when I know I'm good at something at least a little. And if I have that sort of comfort, I don't need anything else. You could say that I 'strum my pain away'. Although it doesn't necassarily have to be pain.

It's my source of happiness, I guess. And I'm not exaggerating and trying to be those rock stars who 'can't live without their guitar'. I'm sure I could live without it...but only in a state of slight misery. I need to play needlessly on it, to feel the vibrations of music 'heal me'. I know that a lot of guitarists agree with me, except for those who get angry when they mess up a note. But even that doesn't bother me somehow. I laugh at my mistakes because of the sounds that I produce from the instrument. I'm serious. It sends me laughing. And that helps more with any problem or trouble I'm going through. I don't know where I would be without Snoopy!

When it gets too much
I need to feel your touch
I'm gonna run to you.
I'm gonna run to you.
'Cause when the feeling's right,
I'm gonna run all night
I'm gonna run to you
I'm gonna run to you.
- 'Run To You', Bryan Adams